here's the link to the playlist itself — see thread below for content notes if those are things you want/need!
sometimes i feel like a complete imposter who knows nothing about contemporary classical music and then sometimes i can look at a percussion ensemble's publicity photo and identify *exactly* which piece they are playing in it
long post countering a transphobic claim Afficher plus
a recurring transphobic talking point is the question "what if these kids are REALLY GAY instead of trans??", so here are some thoughts about that!
there are a few ways it's obviously bullshit that i want to knock out before getting to what i rlly wanna talk about. first: people can be trans *and* gay! i know, shocker, take a moment
second: the early steps of trying out a new gender are 100% reversible. if someone is like "hey, i wanna try out this name and these pronouns and these clothes" and then is like "whoops, no, that's wrong", they can just . . . go back, no harm done. which is to say: transition is not some relentless juggernaut that, once set in motion, cannot be stopped. people who start transitioning *still have agency and can decide for themselves which steps they do and don't want to take and reverse*
but more fundamentally, when it comes to personal identity, i don't think there's any "there" there. i think there are absolutely societal contexts in which i would have become a binary trans woman or a swishy femme gay man. i also think there are contexts where i'd become a Spanish Inquisitor. and i think this is true of a lot of people!
i think there are absolutely older cis LGB ppl who'd be some flavor of trans were they born in the 90s or 00s. i think there are a lot of 10–30-yr-old trans ppl who'd be cis if we'd been born in the 50s or 60s
and i think this proves *absolutely nothing* beyond the drearily obvious fact that brains are complicated and ppl are shaped by the social contexts they find themselves in. the question "who am i *really*, tho?" has no end or limit. you can excavate forever w/no solid answers
and yes! this means that as societal contexts change, people will change with them, adopting new ways of understanding themselves and being in the world. and yes, sometimes this means older modes of existence fade away, and it's deeply understandable to feel a nostalgic sadness about that! but it does *not* mean that new ways of living are invalid or wrong, and nor does it make it justifiable to forcibly impose old ways of existence on other people. change is a part of life, and the mere presence of change does not make every new thing bad. if you want to argue that new frameworks for understanding queerness are *worse* than the ones we had in the 70s or w/e, you have to *actually make that argument*, not just say "this new way is different". (this is, ofc, eliding the questions of how different these frameworks are, how monolithic the past was, how well it served everyone who lived in it, and how accurately it is being remembered and presented now)
the question "what if they're really gay tho?" presumes that there's some Fixed True Essence of a person, and that happiness is impossible unless you live in accordance with it (where "happiness" can have a philosophically broad definition). it presumes that people are one thing or another, cleanly and immutably, that — to be a bit more Queer Theory about it than i normally am — we *are* instead of we *become*
it also, more insidiously, presumes that being cis and gay is better than being trans. b/c ppl who ask this question aren't really asking "what if instead of being trans and happy, trans ppl could be cis & gay and happy?" (the answer to that question is, i hope obviously, "who the fuck cares? literally what is the point of inquiring after every possible alternate universe instead of the universe at hand?"), they're really saying "we should only let ppl be trans as a last resort, after we've exhausted all other options, b/c being trans, creating trans bodies is inherently undesirable and should be avoided if at all possible. are you *sure* you can't avoid the Terrible Fate of being trans by being cis & gay instead?". which is obviously heinous bollocks. trans bodies are just as good as cis bodies, and being trans is exactly as valid as being cis — they're neutral alternatives, and any claim that cis is in fact better than or preferable to trans is patently and transparently transphobic
anyway, all of this assumes that transphobes are arguing in good faith, which they're flagrantly not ok have a good Wednesday bye
new #review! i'm in #TheLogJournal writing about a concert from the new #feminist composer collective #KindsOfKings! i compare a #BariSax piece to an entrapped poltergeist, and i'm p happy with how it turned out:
Create something for no practical purpose such as a song, a poem, an essay, a painting, a drawing, a comic strip, a collage, etc.
open education Afficher plus
I mentioned the other day in a conversation on here about a friend who essentially broke the exclusive&expensive guild system in a role-playing game by starting a scheme whereby he would teach you for free but only if you taught at least 1 other person for free.
I'm now wondering about designing a syllabus for e.g. piano lessons that sortof hard-codes this ethos, so higher-level certification can only happen if you reach certain levels of performance *and* teach others.
i love being queer. i love being trans and bi and existing in a world that so many people have no idea exists. It feels like when you are playing a video game and the map changes into like a dream version or something, like in Link to the Past. We walk around in the same physical space, but a completely different life, a different world. i love it #dirtTour
hello new people from tumblr! here's an #introduction post! i'm a #composer and #lyricist (and #librettist and #playwright sometimes too) with a foot in both #ClassicalMusic and #MusicTheatre / #MusicTheater / #opera. i used to be a pretty active #bassoon player, but it's been a while since i've picked up my instrument (tho hopefully that will change next year!) i'm pretty fond of #puns, and a lot of my work focuses on #queer / #LGBTQ issues and #Judaism
in addition, i'm an award-winning #music #journalist ( #MusicJournalist ) with an emphasis on the areas that i'm a composer in. currently i'm writing mostly for National Sawdust's Log Journal, but i've also published quite a few pieces at VAN Magazine
i have a general social account for memes and casual interaction and stuff over at @glitternoodle , but no worries if that's not your jam!
Cool take: Amateur art has value. Folk art has value. Art with technical problems has value.
It's not appropriate to judge all art by professional metrics. The value individual practice may come from places unrelated to how a third party views or experiences the piece.
Art for community, art for therapy and art just to pass the time are all good. More people should do art.
accountability thing around money Afficher plus
hi friends! i normally like to keep quiet abt these sorts of things b/c talking abt them publicly always feels like i'm leveraging justice/accountability work to narcissistically build my own platform, but i think transparency is actually the higher value here, so:
i finally got paid for the Tippet Rise piece i did over the summer, but since it focussed so heavily on indigenous land rights in Montana, i don't think i should keep any of that money. i've donated my entire writer's fee to Briana Lamb, an indigenous activist who's raising funds to travel to DC from Montana for a congressional hearing on Missing/Murdered Indigenous Women. just felt like it was incumbent upon me to be v open about this!
the fund is here, and i'd encourage you to donate too:
Hydre à thé
things my dream!brain is not capable of: generating the notation for the opening of the fourth movement of the Maslanka bassoon sonata from memory of the sound alone
might fuck around and start a Patreon in 2019
I'm a writer, composer, and bassoonist with feet in both the classical and musical theatre worlds. In my free time, I am very gay. (they/them)
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