one of my actors described my music in rehearsal today as "pretty but mean" and honestly like put that on my grave
on Tuesday i turned in the rehearsal draft of the master's thesis musical i wrote with AriDy Nox this past year, and here are some fun facts and figures about it!
- number of pages: 185, of which 132 are musical score
- number of musical cues: 25
- lines of LilyPond code (excluding style sheets): 15,191
- length of all MIDI files combined (all vamps played once and rubato not executed): 1 hr, 4 min, 41 sec
- cut songs: 10, all from Act I, totaling 8,696 lines of code and 37 min, 53 sec of MIDI
- number of meter changes: lmao u wish i have no way to count this, but i can tell you 100% the most common meter is 3/4 and the least common is 4/5
hey look at that, it's almost dawn
"average musical changes time signature seven times per minute" factoid actually just statistical error. Musicals Brin, who lives in a cave in Manhattan and changes time signature 10,000 times per song, is an outlier adn should not have been counted
ugh all i gotta do is modulate by either a tritone or a minor third depending on how you interpret the harmonic context why is this such a strug
My friend: Hey do you want to watch this classic queer film? Full disclosure, it's kind of trashy
writing chords so dense you can't tell the difference between scales and arpeggios
"MMBU" but it stands for "measures and measures of bloody underscoring"
i don't listen to #Britten's #SpringSymphony often these days, but every time i do, i am flabbergasted anew at just how many of its melodies get stuck in my head still as random musical snippets i regard as fragments of my previous musical life, shorn from their context and hopelessly unidentifiable due to the passage of the years
i have to write five solid pages worth of underscoring today pray for me
"almost out of the contrapuntal woods!", they say cheerfully, blithely adding another voice to the fugue and ignoring the solid page of lyric they have yet to set
talking about gender identity labels Afficher plus
please don't ever refer to me, specifically, as "gender non-conforming". i know that everyone has their own feeling on what various gender terms mean and which ones they like, but i always feel like calling me "gnc" is a form of misgendering
because like, what exactly am i not conforming *to*? presumably a certain set of gendered presentations and behaviors, right? but which set? it always feels like "well, Brin was assigned male at birth, but they wear makeup and dresses and stuff, which is not Expected Male Behavior, so we're going to call them non-conforming to describe that about them"
but like! i am not a man!!! it's not that i'm ~not conforming to the expected behaviors of my gender~, it's that *my gender is different than the gender people often read me as*. my typical presentation actually lines up pretty damn well with my gender, because my gender *isn't male at all*. i look exactly the way you would expect a me to look because i look the way i want to (for the most part)
so yeah, describing me as "gender non-conforming" feels like you're calling me "a man who doesn't do masculinity the way we expect him to", and i hate that very viscerally for very obvious reasons. don't do it, it is not ok